Well, that's... Shinji's not sure how to feel about that. It's not exactly comforting that this didn't bring Kai any net reprieve, but would Shinji have felt better if it had, considering the subject matter? At least this is all a testament to Kai's honesty, and at least he got to unleash this information on his own terms, but... oof.

This sucks.

But what in the world could he possibly want it to be? He doesn't want it to be anything, if all it's being is a pain to both Kai and himself, but it's not like he can just wish this painful fact away, and Kai clearly didn't want it to be a secret, so...

"Were you planning on telling her, too?"